Baby Steps

So, Sunday was my first day of wearing the hijab.
My mother's eyes were fixated on me as I put as many penitis as possible to make sure the tudung maintain.
I tell you, my heart was beating so fast, I purposely took a long time in front of the mirror trying to delay the outing.
"Mom, I'm scared."
She teared.
"Mom, stop that please. You're not helping."
She replied,"Kin, Allah has given you HIS hidayah. Pls don't question and doubt. Hidayah may not come again."
And with that I said,"Ok. Let's go!"

I felt like a bride with an entourage following behind me.
The entourage consisted of Nyla, Rooqy (my 2 year old nephew), Bibik Juma and my biggest cheerleader of all, my mother.
Mr E poor thing la.
I kept saying 'Today is going to be the day' only for me to back out numerous times the past few weeks. So when he came home and I told him I survived the first day, he was surprised!

When I entered the lift, I tell you my heart was beating so fast...my facewas so tight.
And then something magical happened in the lift.
My two year old nephew, Rooqy, held my hand, looked up at me and said,"You sho pweety Aunty Nuya."
My lil angel. (My mom broke down again, by the way.)
Immediately, all my fears vanished.
I attended my secondary schoolmate's son's birthday function at the cc just across the road.
Spent about 30-45 minutes and then went back home.
I DID IT and I felt so blardy proud of myself.

The next morning, since Mr E had no classes, we had lunch at his school.
Then my mother SMSed me,"Nak go Orchard?"
I guess she's just proud to be seen with her daughter who has just donned the tudung.
We had a good time lunching and shopping.
I really must make an effort to go out with my mom more often.

This week, if the togas and ponchos reach some of you ladies late, we apologise k.
Both the seamstress and marketing person slack la. Hee!

Yesterday was my third day.
Early morning start since Nyla has swimming lessons with Kesy's boys every Tuesday morning.
Kesy embraced me so tight when she saw me.
"Welcome to the club!" hug la tu! Heee!
At about 10ish after Nyla's lesson ended, I received a phonecall from..... Guess who?
My mom la. (She's really addicted to me now as you all can see.)
Had lunch at her place before Nyla and I went to Science Centre to meet Nyla's classmates and their mommies.
The night before, I prepared the mommies.
They are real sweeties la ah.




I'm really taking baby steps.
I am currently experiencing so much love around me. At Facebook...Twitter...I'm real sorry I didn't get to reply you one by one but I read your messages. So touched. Feeling an enriched existence of love and hope its just amazing!


May the Almighty shower you and me with all his blessings!

I stumbled upon this beautiful quote by Yusuf Islam and thought I'd share with you all: “Islam is not a state of being but it is a process of becoming,” – becoming more, become better, striving to reach that state of perfect submission and connection with Allah Most High, and May He help all of us achieve that, ameen.”

Once again, I thank you all for the love!