Monday, April 20, 2009

Road less travelled

I've been toying with this idea since I made the decision to be a full time mom.
However, every time I think of doing this, my heart will beat so damn very fast because the act of taking full responsibility for the education of Nyla kinda freaks me out.
So many questions will erupt in this head of mine.
Am I competent enough?
Do I have the patience?
Will I stay committed?

I am in the midst of doing research. It seems to be taking forever but I really have to be very sure.
Shifu Kesy, I definitely need your help!
Thankfully, my family is very supportive and for this, I am pretty relieved.

Well, I have till end of this year to decide whether I am going to homeschool Nyla.

Meanwhile, I'll just give homeschooling a go as a complement to Nyla's current school just to explore her interests and keep her curiosity alive.
At least, it will get easier for both Nyla and myself to move into homeschooling next year (insyaallah) because we are already accustomed to lots of learning at home.

I am not expecting my child to be a genius.
I just want to keep the spark of enthusiastic learning alive in my babe.

Being a former teacher, I have experienced many moments of frustration and sympathised with the pupils who couldn't cope. There were bright ones who had to slow down to accomodate their slower peers. And then, the slow ones who were drowning and eventually drowned.
At least at home, I know my babe will be free to find her own level.

What say you, Nyla?
Do you want to wake up every morning with that Friday afternoon feeling of freedom just like Mommy?

Blissed out

It is Monday and I haven't been suffering from the Monday blues since I left my job.
Every day is an awesome feeling for me.
I can now stay out late on Sunday nights without worrying about work the next day.
It is just wonderful to be able to start off each and every morning with that Friday afternoon feeling of freedom.
Want to know what's even more wonderful?
To have both the quality and quantity time and enjoy my daughter.
I am absolutely blissed out. Alhamdullilah.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009


By 9 pm, Nyla and I will be in the room getting ready for bed.

If Esman comes home late, I'll sms him this: Honey, Nyla is dozing off (which is not true!) Do not open the door and enter the room. Wait for me to come out.
(However, I never came out. Usually I would doze off too! Haha! And poor Esman will be sitting on the couch waiting for me to come out of the room. Sorry ah!)

There have been a few instances when Nyla was really already dozing off when Esman would enter the room and disrupt her journey to slumberland. The thing is, whenever that happened, she would be instantly recharged, and it will take a pretty long time for her to get back to sleep.

I managed to capture a video of that one particular time when Esman destroyed my plans to make her sleep before 9.30pm.

Merrily singing when just a few minutes before this video was taken, she was 'stoning'.
Saw the plaster just below the lip? Nope, it is not an injury. My girl now has a habit of licking her lips till her lip area gets very red and dry. So far the plaster is working....Sigh...Macam macam!